Well, I’ll tell you what motivates me and those are my babies! As cliché as it may sound, I’m serious… they have a lot to do with who I am today. I found courage to get out of an abusive and domestically violent relationship all off the strength of my first born son, RJ. Honestly, leaving that relationship was a hard thing for me to do because everything that I’d dealt with, I had become accustomed to & there was a little bit of fear in me each time I tried to leave but when RJ came in the picture my mindset began to change. He was the most precious thing I had ever laid eyes on and I knew I didn’t want to raise him up in that type of environment. Kids don’t ask to be here nor do they deserve that. Because of RJ, I found enough courage to leave shortly after he turned a year old. I finally came to terms with the fact that I DESERVED BETTER than what I was choosing to settle for and most importantly, my baby deserved the very best that I could give him. I moved back home with my dad to create a safer, calmer and happier environment for him. In the meantime, I worked to get back up on my feet & worked on some personal growth as well. A few months later, I started dating a different guy (who is now my Husband! We’ve been together for almost 6 years & so far married for almost 7 months!! He is nothing short of amazing might I add!) Anyway, I got pregnant by him during our very first year of dating. During my second pregnancy with my second son, Noah… I spent a lot of time thinking about my future and what I could do to improve it and make it better than what I had going on at that moment in my life. Of course, like most people I wanted to go back to college and finish what I’d started but at the time I couldn’t afford it, I didn’t have a very good support system & I also knew that I needed to be working somewhere and contributing bills along with my partner. I knew I didn’t want to work at a fast food restaurant and I dang sure wasn’t going back to a factory! Not that there’s anything wrong with working in either one of those job fields, I just felt like they weren’t for me and I refused to settle for it. I knew I had to do something though and it had to be good. Taking care of one child is enough but to start taking care of two on top of bills and etc, I knew it would be expensive and I knew I had to have some sort of game plan! So I decided to take CNA classes and become a Certified Nursing Assistant! To you, it may not seem like much but for me… it was everything! It was the first time I felt like I had succeeded in something besides graduating high school. I was so proud of me! On top of that, I knew that having that certification meant I wouldn’t ever have to go back and work at a factory again or settle for minimum wage jobs simply because CNA’s are always in high demand! Whether it’s at a nursing home, clinic, or hospital they will always be in high demand. I don’t think I would’ve ever pushed myself that hard to achieve something like that if I had not gotten pregnant again. So to Noah, I will always be grateful for that motivation! I can honestly say, I’m a better person because of my kids. Not perfect but BETTER. I have a healthier lifestyle because of them. I make better choices because of them. The way I manage my money is improving somewhat because of them (haha). Even though I hate getting up & going to work everyday, I go because of them! I’m working hard now so I can help set them up for success later in the future. I have more self-control because of my children. I respond differently now to certain things, situations & people that upset me. I’m not about that drama life because I’m about THEIR LIFE! See, when you have kids, you gotta move a different kind of way. I’ve learned to be selective in my battles. Sometimes, PEACE is definitely better than being right!! I’ve had to fight through some rough days, painful situations & sad nights during my 26 years of living and sometimes I feel like the main reason I’ve pushed on through them all was weighing on the strength of my two babies and that’s real. I got pregnant with both of my kids out of wedlock and yes, a lot of people frowned on that and tried to be judgmental but you know what… GOD knew what He was doing when he gave me my two boys & ultimately, HE is the one that I will forever be grateful to for that!! God truly had a purpose for my life before I ever had a plan for myself & my babies… they were clearly apart of His plan 🙂
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